很忙碌，不知道是在努力还是在逃避。

迷茫会时不时地袭来，就像是过去在那莫名冲动的青春期一样，或许是因为像我这样的人需要太长的时间去沉淀自己。好在我似乎已然免疫，面对生活的提问，与其站在原地继续茫然着，不如尝试去寻找答案；虽然答案永远找不到，但是寻觅的过程却是能给人平和的心的。

 

那样的场景又发生了，在喧闹的人群中突然感觉被包隔了，欢声笑语都隐去了，只是自己一个人静静地站在那里。个体与群体，一个我原本以为自己已经明白了的道理，似乎又调转头过来咬我了，而且咬得更深，让我怀疑之前答案的正确性。

我在想，或许我该养条狗呢。无声的它会用心去体会与感应吗？

 

和几个朋友又聊起了去留墨尔本的老问题。大家说发展空间，说自由，似乎都是些陈词滥调呢。有些问题不仅仅是黑与白的灰色混合，而是complication。这样的问题是难以面对的，而唯一能解决这样问题的，却又仅仅是简简单单用自己的心去听。

一旁静静的一个人忽然开口了，对于这么一个地方，你从一开始的不顺，郁闷，甚至恨，而到后来的喜欢和爱，那么那个地方就会成为你很重要的一个地方，你的家。

这就是所谓的积淀吧。

 

那么就继续去忙碌吧，彷徨与不确定时，也唯独只有自己去尝试寻找才能有线索与结果吧。

You know,it hurts,and it hurts like hell...but i am in no way to tell you that...

听些哭来哭去的歌也没什么意思，哈哈

 

 

 

 

Out there in the air tonight
It's electric, it's alive
Suddenly you can see right before your eyes
A thousand candles burning bright

Someday soon
You're gonna catch that dream you've been chasing
Someday soon
They're gonna write your name in the sky
All you need is just to believe it
You know you're my hero
You're gonna be a star tonight

Inside feel your heart ignite
It's your time to arrive
Suddenly you can see that it's possible
And I'll be right here by your side

Take a step
One moment
Closer to the magic
It's just one heartbeat away
Don't give up
Embrace it
Breathe it in
Believe it
You know the way

 

 

I can almost see it
That dream I'm dreaming but
There's a voice inside my head sayin,
You'll never reach it,
Every step I'm taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking but I
Got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes you going to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what?s waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing,
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes they knock me down but
No I'm not breaking
I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm going to remember most yeah
Just got to keep going
And I,
I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on, cause

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm going to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

Keep on moving
Keep climbing
Keep the faith baby
It's all about
It's all about
The climb
Keep the faith
Keep your faith

喝醉了，却还是很有尊严。那么，及格了。

 

我知道这些年来很辛苦，但是那又怎样呢？还期盼有人同情吗？男人的成长倘若没有这些曲折，那又算什么呢？等待等待等待，如果它一直不发生，一直不出现，又怎么办呢？理想主义者只会楞头青似的继续追求理想，那又怎样？我已选择了这样生活，没有回头，也不回头。

 

荒谬。没有女神的世界。令人失望，寄望于他人只有失望，能掌握的还是自己。

 

总有一天要把这个世界倒个个儿。it is the way it is, but it is not the way it should be.